You might not believe me but….
I’m not attracted to you anymore. You are strictly a best friend if you even want to call it that. Yes, I will get jealous of other girls, but it’s not because I want to be with you, it’s because I know you and I wont be as close if you started dating. She would spend all the time with you and you’ll never see me. She could even hate me for all I know, and tell you that you can’t be friends with me anymore. That’s just something that I can’t handle. I care too much for you that I would be way more protective than I should be. On the other hand though, I don’t feel like I’m your best friend. You say I am, but when it comes down to it you really don’t act like it. You even said that there are some things that you can’t discus with me. If I was really your best friend you could talk to me about anything, I wouldn’t have to pry it out of you. Then again there are things that I’m not willing to tell you, but I strive to be your best friend simply because I just don’t know what I would do without you. I just wish there was a way I could tell you all of this and you believe me. You and I just have that friendship where we make fun of everything, we never have serious conversations. I just wish it was easier for me to be myself around with you like it is for you to be yourself around me.
